Road...

Sound of wind coming from far,
Road was empty...
Like poisonous snake laid on the earth,
With black, yellow, white scar!
The more I walked, more it turned...
Bended and twisted had me burned.
A puzzle that could not be solved,
Was before me and I revolved!
Tired with pain and anger I sat down,
Felt that same shade once around.
I opened my eyes to see the world,
From inside someone called-
Do you know what you want?
Blank I was, with numbness all around!

Prayer To Thee My Lord

This is my prayer to thee, my lord- strike, strike at the root of penury in my heart.

Give me the strength lightly to bear my joys and sorrows.
Give me the strength to make my love fruitful in service.
Give me the strength never to disown the poor or bend my knees before insolent might.
Give me the strength to raise my mind high above daily trifles.
And give me the strength to surrender my strength to thy will with love.

...From Gitanjali

Hi Jonny,

Remember that dark night, we shivered and ran… ran miles, cold air pinching like thousand needles. That bloody night… that cold body of Bob… the water of the fountain, becoming red… my head spinning and lips becoming white…

Remember?

Remember those days, the dusty abandoned church! Our hideout… Remember the pretty morning mist…gold and silver… ’ Why it can’t stay all the time?’, you asked.

‘Nothing go can stay…
Nature’s first screen is gold…
Her heart is here to hold…
Her early leaves, a flower…
But only someone knows…
They least obsessed to live…
So it isn’t said to grief…
So dawn goes down today…
Nothing gold can stay…’

Remember this Jonny…

Gone with the wind into the hills and dales, your soul, but you seem to be so near…

Missing You…
Ponny Boy…

Today, I have seen an excellent movie: ’The Outsider’… In this, Jonny and Ponny Boy are good friends. Jonny dies saving some children off fire. This letter is my reaction, as Ponny Boy.

My Last Moment

I have always heard... your entire life flashes in front your eyes, the second before you die… First of all, that one second isn’t a second at all, it stretches on forever like an ocean of time.

For me it was like lying on my back at the boy’s scout camp, watching falling stars, yellow leaves from maple trees that lined our streets, my grandmother’s hands and the way her skin seemed like paper and the first time I saw my cousin, Tony’s brand new Fire Bird. And Jenny…. And Jenny… My little angel… And Charoline…

I guessed I would be pretty pissed off for what had happened to me…

But it’s hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the World. Sometimes I feel, I am saying it at once and it’s too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. And then I remember to relax and stop trying to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain. And I can’t feel anything, but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.

You have no idea, what I am talking about, I am sure. But, don’t worry! you will, someday…


… From American Beauty

I found these lines so very beautiful that I couldn’t stop myself to share…

You can come but can never leave...

Today on my way to office, I was looking out to the hills far away! When I fell drowsy and started dreaming, with eyes half closed, I don’t remember.

I was walking on sands, I noticed. There was sound of waves from far. I realized it was seashore. Walking seemed difficult in the scorching sun, I felt dizzy. So I slowed down.
A cool breeze started blowing. The wind carried a distinct scent. I was delighted, yet calm. Then I saw you. With your heart losing smile adorned with that ‘til’ on your chin, you were my angel. My world changed!

We did not speak. We walked together. There was some battle in the heavens so the sky was red and losing its blue. The birds could not accept this and hurried home. The sun was tired and let himself float on the sea. Far away a fishing trolley was returning.

The waves touched our ankles and sometimes a bit higher, and occasionally our hands touched. We did not hold hands but when touched we tried to adhere. I entered into someone’s world. Here I feared no-one. We walked and walked in this wonderland.

The sky turned dark, moon seemed soothing, and the waves played its ever continuing music. I felt like kissing you. We laid on the sand and enjoyed the magic. This world seemed so simple yet so beautiful. There were no tensions, no burdens, no explanations required, only a promise to make: “We will not part, we will be together forever and ever”

Suddenly someone pushed me hard, you were not there. The promise was broken before being made. I lost you. I was alone again!

I got down from the bus and entered the office gate!

AM I CRAZY..

LET ME SEE YOU...
LET ME LOOK AT YOU...
YOU JUST SIT BESIDE ME...
TIME WILL WAIT TILL I MOVE MY EYES... WHICH I CANNOT...
DAYS, MONTHS, YEARS WILL PASS...
BUT WE WILL BE AGELESS...

LET ME TOUCH THE WIND THAT TOUCHES YOU...
LET ME INHALE ITS FRAGRANCE...
LET ME FEEL ITS WARMTH AND DEPTH...
SO WHAT WE ARE FAR...
WIND WILL KEEP US NEAR...

WHY I TALK TO MYSELF...
WHY I GET ABSENT MINIDED...
WHY I SEE YOU IN EVERY FACE...
WHY I WAIT...
YOU ARE LEADING ME CRAZY...

LET ME BE OCCUPIED WITH YOUR THOUGHT...
LET ME TRAVEL WITH YOU AS I AM LOST...
LETS HOLD HANDS AND WALK...
AM I DREAMING...
I WANT TO DREAM FOREVER AND NEVER WAKE UP...